Breaking old habits

I turned 40 a couple of weeks ago and am still going to crossfit but not as regularly as I had planned.  I signed up to go to two classes a week and then after a few late nights at work, family functions and what have you, I ended going only once a week : ( I think that the whole idea of turning forty was a huge motivating factor in getting me through the doors of the box in the first place but now that I have actually reached that milestone and haven't dropped dead from my first WOD I'm like, "Okay, I'm still alive!" I say that only because I do scaled down versions of the movements so that I can actually complete the WODs instead of standing to the side doing NOTHING. 

I miss one class at the box and BOOM I get an email from Ana (one of the owners) asking me, "When are we going to see you next?" Here I was, just thinking that I would just slink off into the sunset after having done a few classes but looks like that's not going to happen anytime soon (well, not at WOF Crossfit anyway).  I do appreciate Ana's emails and her encouragment though because unless you're a gym/exercise junkie and cannot go a day without doing exercise it can become too easy to not go to a class.  In saying that, I always feel better after a class and as I may have mentioned before - my body enjoys the workouts more than my mind does.  I suppose that for me, it's a bit hard to go from being really afraid of exercising (thanks to traumatic primary/college experiences with sports) and just really hating exercise because I found it soooo hard to being someone who looks forward to the challenge of completing workouts at a level that I can manage.  I find that since doing crossfit, I enjoy the challenge of each workout and I really like the fact that each day is different.  No two workouts are ever the same and so there is none of the dread that I experience just 'thinking' about going to a regular gym.  I have never received a phone call or email from any other gym after missing a class.  As long as they got my money, they were happy and I just got fatter while they got richer.  At the end of the day, everything we do (or don't do) is a choice.  I am just glad that I have found something that I enjoy because it makes the choice to turn up that much easier (well, that and Ana's friendly/scary emails lol).